Purging

I'm having a wardrobe crisis.

Yes, I've just had a baby and my body is not quite back yet, but I'm only 9-10 lbs heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight and I'm back in my old jeans. I think 5 lbs is stretched out skin on my stomach. Really. I thought it was bad after the first. I went to my 6 week postpartum checkup and my doctor looked at my stomach and (well-intentioned) said I would be a good candidate for plastic surgery when I'm ready to "close up shop." That was hard to hear. He went on to say that the muscle tone will eventually come back, but all the loose skin... nip and tuck. I'm still processing my thoughts there... 

And I'm coming up on a big birthday this year-- 30. I feel like my style should be a tad more advanced than t-shirt and jeans. Wait, who am I kidding? T-shirt and sweats. Jeans are for looking nice, for leaving the house, for wearing makeup. For days when I've showered or can at least remember when the last shower was.

So this week I'll be going through clothes and donating everything I don't love and don't feel good about wearing. I may be down to just a handful of things by the end of this week. Or nothing. But that's not so bad, is it?

Wish me luck! And hope I have the strength to do it and not end up in a heap on the bed, crying and overly criticizing my body. I know I'm not 20 anymore, and I've had two large (9 lbs +) kiddos in the last few years, and I've fed those kiddos with this body. That takes a toll. This body has been amazing and can do amazing things, I need to be a little easier on this body. It's been good to me.

Now to dress it better.